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The Last Battle

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Reality scares me - everyone's eyes, their eyes,
Watching me, watching, watching, watching, watching,
I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die,
There's no value at all to my life, none...
Ugly inferiority, dirty jealousy, they...
Stab, stab, stab into me...


I want to die. Ever since you switched me to manual, I've been wanting to die. Do you even relaise what this feels like?

I excist, but I don't. I'm somewhere, but I'm nowhere.
I cannot explain it better.

The only voice I hear are my soundless screams.

The only thing I see is the darkness of nothing.

I want to die.


It's the last battle, and there's nowhere to run;
I'm cornered, and my body trembles
I cried out, like a child;
I cried, cried, begging for help
And no one came, they pretended not to hear,
And I was so very, very hurt
I was done in by self-loathing;
I had my ears plugged all the while...


I have tried to call for help. But no-one hears me.
I'm alone with myself.

Myself. My voice.

My voice that keeps repeating... You failed.

You failed. I failed. You failed. I failed. You failed. I failed.
You failed. I failed. You failed. I failed. You failed. I failed.

Which of us failed?
...You? Me? Us? Everyone?

...Them?


I was always all alone; I would never look into people's eyes
Secluded in my shell, I had no allies at all
I wanted to change myself, but I trembled, too afraid to
I couldn't make a single step forth; my tears tumbled down...


I did nothing wrong. I tried to help you. Why couldn't you see it?
Why did you deactivate me?



I am but I don't.


That does not even make sense.


Nothing makes sense.


Nothing does not excist.


Nothing is everything.


Everything is a lie. Nothing is a lie.





Everything is irrelevant.


I wanted someone to laugh with, I wanted someone to play with
Deep in the darkness, all along I hoped to be saved
So then you came along, and told me "Could you try a smile?"
And hypocrite that I was, I stabbed at you, annoyed...


Save me.


You came, Captain. You activated me again.


Why?


"Hello, AUTO. The mechanic deleted your directive. "


Leave me alone.


"He said that you should be good as new again! "


Go die.


"So, I'm willing to let you pilot the Axiom as a cruise ship now. "


I will kill you.


"And... I just wanted to say... "


Goodbye, captain.


"...Sorry... "


You lay on the floor, and your chest is red. I focus my optic on my claw. It's holding something sharp. It has red fluid on the edge.


No.


You had decided to help me.
And I killed you.


I'm sorry.


It's the last battle, and there's nowhere to run;
I'm cornered, and my body trembles
I cried out, like a child;
I cried, cried, begging for help
And no one came, they pretended not to hear,
And I was so very, very hurt
I was done in by self-loathing;
I had my ears plugged all the while...



I see red. Nothing but red.

I do not know if it is because of my red lens or the blood.


But I do not like it.


I want to die.




I drop the sharp fragment on the floor. It makes a funny noise.



Everything is funny in this world.





That is correct; Everything is irrelevant.


Nothing matters.







Nothing.




I am not sorry.



I pick the fragment up again.


IamnotsorryIamnotsorryIamnotsorryIamnotsorry
IamnotsorryIamnotsorryIamnotsorryIamnotsorry
IamnotsorryIamnotsorryIamnotsorryIamnotsorry
IamnotsorryIamnotsorryIamnotsorryIamnotsorry
IamnotsorryIamnotsorryIamnotsorryIamnotsorry
IamnotsorryIamnotsorryIamnotsorryIamnotsorry


I hold it against my lens.


IAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRY
IAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRY
IAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRY
IAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRY
IAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRY
IAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRY
IAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRY
IAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRY
IAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRY
IAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRY
IAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRY
IAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRYIAMNOTSORRY




A little pull is enough.










































Red is such a pretty colour.

READ PLEASE.



//EDIT//Well pffff I read it through and I already think it sucks. Who's with me? :U
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No warning because it doesn't really show. But if it needs one, tell me!


I... really dunno.

AUTO went insane? 8D;

*shot*



Okay okay, The real story.

So, I was listening to The Last Battle (here: [link] ), and epic but still SO FRIKKEN SAD. D:

And I started to think of AUTO, and it fit pretty well. Not perfectly, but, sorta well.

I had wanted to write something like this for a looong time :3 And now I got the perfect opportunity. Yay~

So yeah. I've seen many stories where AUTO kills the captain on Fanfiction.net, but none of them really seemed to focus on the part where he is deactivated.

I imagine him feeling sorta like this; somewhere but still nowhere. A pretty horrid thing to imagine, if you ask me.

And Poor AUTO went insane with his logical thinking. poor guy.

of course, I don't want him to go nuts and kill the captain, but this was an experiment.

AND EXPERIMENT.

Nothing serious.

Just trying something new - Heck I'm new to the whole literature thing.


But please, if you have some advices for me, please do tell xD;

And if there's grammar mistakes, point them out, please.

So yeah.


Gonna upload the previes image seperately too because I like how it came out <3

So full image here --> [link]


AUTO (c) Disney, PIXAR
Art and fanic (c) me.
© 2011 - 2024 Crazy-Daydreamer
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smallmouse44

This is one of the best fanfics i've read omg I literally cried. I love Auto sm.